I had a nice nursery and big windows. I had a car and a piano in my own house. I had a garden and all kinds of flowers you can imagine. I had good times with my brother and the rest of my family. I had blonde hair, sometimes shorter, sometimes longer. I had coffee and tea and both with alcohol. I had wishes and dreams and the reality. I had promises and a broken heart. I had satisfaction and tears in my eyes. I had friends and people who wanted to be my friends. I had debts and cash flow. I had broken shoes and a wedding dress. I had air in my lungs and dust in my mouth. I had almost everything, but I never had me and I had never me.